so i created a Pro Ana Mia forum.
i hope you guys visit it, this is the first time iv ever done something like this so help me out, give me feedback, whatever.
spread the word, i really want this to work out!
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so i created a Pro Ana Mia forum.
i hope you guys visit it, this is the first time iv ever done something like this so help me out, give me feedback, whatever.
spread the word, i really want this to work out!
link:
wow. i really havent been on in a while. school is just WAY too stressful!!
everything is getting in the way. i wish is was normal or thin enough. iv been havin to eat more lately just to keep my energy up for school and what not.
my therapist said it was a good idea to do homework with friends, so i have been. but when ever my friends come over i always eat a lot. like upwards of 1200 cals for that day.
i still havent told my therapist about my ED, i dont think i plan on it either.
i got a psychiatrist and i am now on anti-depressants along with the ADHD med i was already taking. iv been on the antidepressants for about a month. and i secretly stopped taking them about a week ago. it made me feel “not me”. and when i told my therapist about it she said i would have to be on trial with them for about 6 months before she made a decision on whether or not to take me off them. i guess its really not my choice anymore. but when im happy i eat more and then i want to be skinny but i cant bring myself to do it because im “happy”. and then when i did stop taking them i was losing weight again. i could finally see some of my bones. it had been so long. but then thanksgiving came, but that another story. i guess i just wanted to update everyone about how im doing. im still about 106-105 these days. not very happy about it.
might post more later but it have a LOT of work to do for school. i hate school -____-
Well, here we go.
When I was in second grade my mom tool me to the army medical center and got me tested for ADHD. I’m not exactly sure what compelled her to do it. I mean I was eight, what was the difference. So Anyways, I got there and they ran a bunch of tests on me. Plopped me in front of a computer and
Told me what was up. I had to press the space bar everytime a letter popped up on the black screen. Five minutes in I decide that this is obsurd and why should I be doing this while my mom got to talk to someone in a different room while iwas sitting there all alone. I proceeded to test out some of the other chairs in the room and when the lady came back into the room I said I got bored.they asked me some more questions after that but I think it was pretty obvious I had ADHD.
So I started seeing a military therapist and began taking medication to treat my ADHD. I had a hard time remembering and I never wanted to take it anyways so around the end of sixth grade I stopped the meddication and tryed living life on my own. Well, about a few months ago it just got too hard juggling school work and everything and I started seeing another psychotheraist. This time she’s a civilian. Anywho, I began taking strattera again, though I’m no better at remembering to take it. I figure since I’m starting highschool next year it’s not time to be experimenting and I should just get down to what works. It does. When I take it. Today I had a session with my therapist and she asked me if I was doing any better taking my strattera, to which I replied that I took about three times within the last week and I hadn’t taken it yesterday morning because I didn’t want to wash out the taste of beagle that was left over in my mouth. Yeah, so that’s pretty much how I ammoat of the time. She laughed, I laughed with her. It was kind of silly but bring a perfectionist and a little OCD I refused to cut a small chunk out of another beagle like she suggested. No one wants a beagle with holes in it!
So that’s my story about ADHD and tomorrow I will probably post about depression and what not.
I’m not sure how many people out there actually read this but if you are I hope you comment or leave me a message or just say hello, anything really :)
Love ya,
Katy
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